i’m a mostly unskilled worker looking for a good paying job. i really don’t care what the job is at this point, as long as it pays well. i recently got a good amount of experience with a chainsaw, working on the fire mitigation crew at the shambhala mountain center.
they’re my only good reference.
i’ve been fired from most of the jobs i’ve had–and i’ve had a lot of them. and i’ve hated most of them–mostly because of who i was working for. i have generally not liked my bosses.
but i’ve realized that this is (usually) at least as much my fault as it is theirs. in the past, i have worked hard to project the “right” image–a false image–to potential employers, so that they’ll hire me. for instance, i often use my brother as a fake reference (it helps that he changed his last name after my parents got divorced)–and i even list the fictional job i did working for him on applications and resumes–my brother has been kind enough to be willing to back me up on this if he gets a call–but as far as i know nobody’s ever called him about it. and when i list my previous employers on applications, or on my resume, the dates are all stretched to make my employment history look less spotty than it is.
i realize now that this initial dishonesty is not a good way to start off a professional relationship–on my part, it causes paranoia and even a little resentment–and that’s the kind thing that just festers over time. but the problem is that it’s unlikely that giving my actual work history would ever get me a job–and i need a job. everyone needs a job right? well, i need one even more now that i have a daughter. so in order to take care of myself and my loved ones, i have (up to this point) decided to compromise my values and lie, lie, lie in order to get a job.
the thing is, i’m a hard worker. all this dishonesty started a long time ago–stemming from a time in my late teens and very early twenties when i wasn’t such a hard worker. my first few jobs were at fast-food joints. i was a severely confused kid and a lousy worker. and after getting fired i wouldn’t be able to use that job as a reference–so i’d get a family member to pretend i’d worked for them at some point (my brother wasn’t the first). this would create tension, paranoia, resentment toward my new boss right from the start–and eventually i would get fired, and the cycle would continue. even after i got myself a work ethic it didn’t matter, because hard work is not all it takes to keep a job. you also have to get along well with the boss and with your co-workers. but in that respect, i have automatically set myself up for failure every time.
but i have to change this. so if you’d please just give me a good paying job–even though my work history is shit. i promise you, i’m a hard worker–i’m a quick learner–and your act of good faith would only serve to make me more appreciative of you as a boss right from the beginning.
if this sounds reasonable to you, and you’ve got a job that you need a hard worker for, give me a call at 970.372.5235.